MEAN is the word

for ME..

thats all i want to say.

im sure most of u will agree wit me.!

i am horribly mean..

be careful n think twice before being my fren..

try not to be so close to me.

coz all i'll do is hurt u..

im serious..

i.a.s.t.t.u.w.c.

all these tears u shed
is all because of wat u shud hav said
because u didnt dare
and because u didnt care

u broke someone's heart
no,mayb even more
and again,
ure about to break another one

what do u think ure doin?

waiting for something
that wont come for u
wasting all ur time
on something not for u

wake up,
get out frm the dream
its not going to happen
yes,it is not going to happen!!!

stop wishing
and stop dreaming
quit torturing urself
its painful, very

i know,
its out of ur control
theres nothing u can do
but to let it all go



its not suppose to rhyme
its not some poem either
n dont bother wondering who its for..

kinda bored, so went n do dis blogthings thingy..
haha..
oh, heres sumthin i found out today

[i felt very cold when i was in the car after lunch today]
me : i feel so cold lar..i wish theres hot air..
dad : got wat..
me : huh? wat u mean?

[dad presses the temperature button up till its 'HOT MAX'.

me : *surprised* ohmygosh, theres reli HOT air! ahahaha! i din noe dat! wow..
mum : yah, feels like im in a dryer now. haha..
me : *still surprised* waaahh..so cool!! hahaha..[puts hand at the air cond.]

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Kamea Iwalani

What's your Hawaiian Name?

Your Outrageous Name is:

Enorma Sass

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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

em,sum r not so true, like the marriage one..hehe

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time... Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

What's Your Fashion Style?

interesting sights in a day..=]

i saw 3 interesting sights today..

the first one, saw it in parent's office..
was studying..then suddenly i saw dis insect..dat has like a sharp butt [haha] on the table, so i took a closer look n it turned out to be an ant carrying a piece of rubber dust. its SO SO cute..ok,yes,im scared of ants but its just when its on me, or its like..a whole lot of em..other than dat, i'm fine..so yeah..i find it so cute. but was thinking, why did it actually take a rubber dust? i mean, its not even sweet rite? =] haha! tried takin a pic of it, but..em,its too small..haha..

the second one was when i was walking in a restaurant for dinner, i saw a half dead pigeon in the middle of the road. and like..it was still breathing, but cant move..and there were feathers around it..and also a small patch of red coloured em, i reli duno if its blood.. but yeah.. and coz we went wit two diff cars, so dad arrived there later, and he almost went over it!! =O hehe..and then i started imagining wat if suddenly a truck comes n crush it infront of me. omgosh..dat wld be urgh..nightmare..! but was also wondering wat happened to it and how it ended up there..?hm.. ?.?

then then, in the restaurant, as i sat down, i suddenly saw a spider at dis corner of an abandoned hawker stall..and like,nobody wld actually bother lookin at it, but i sumhow spotted dat spider. n turns out, its not any ordinary house spiders, but dis is like a black widow look alike.it has white stripes on its legs..n as i watched it, it was actually making its web.! okay, again, i AM afraid of spiders, but like..coz its behind a glass,so im not afraid to look at it..haha.. and i tink the ppl there must b thinking im sum fool staring into an abandoned hawker stall. hahaha..coz i doubt they noe theres a spider there. hahaha.. [hm,mayb seeing a spider is not so interesting to others, coz it wasnt to my family..haha, but i mean, i was so interested coz its not any ordinary spider! ]

kk..yeah..mayb its not dat interesting to sum, but.it is to me..! hehehe..!

oh..n i sumhow hav dis talent in spotting insects, even the smallest n in places dat nobody wld spot..its weird tho, not dat i purposely look out for it, but i sumhow can spot them..so daph suggested dat i shud be a pest controller..hahahaha!! hm, mayb i'll think about it eh? hahahaha!! =S

aih, if u notice, my posts are suddenly so uncolourful..its bcoz im using my dad's laptop [the pc died], and duno why, i cant seem to insert colours in..so,yeah..*sobz* n dis laptop dun hav msn..=[ cant d/l msn..its too slow i suppose..esh..=]

okay, spm is 4 more days..*gasp* not prepared lar..hahaha..and yeah, im still here blogging, im sure all my other frens are flooding themselves wit facts n formulas etc..
and i am here, nicely telling bout my 'interesting' sights. hahaha! and im gona watch the 9.30 show later,kan cheong lar..hahaha! 0=]

possibility..

Everytime I look at you
I wish you looked my way
And flash me that dazzling smile that
really makes my day
But of course it's just a dream
a dream that won't come true
and for unrequited love
I wrote this song for you
I always think of how it'd be
if we were together
You and me holding hands
(It's a dream)
I can picture it right now
You and me,
It's a dream,
It's a possibility...
When I look out of my window
I hope you look up at me
If only you could read my heart
My love so true you'd see
How empty my life would be
If I don't have you
And for unrequited love
I wrote this song for you...
..it's a dream... it's a Possibility...

its a song by intoxicated, our local band..
if im not mistaken, its the one dat aminda's sister is in
hehe..like dis song. =]

after spm..

things i wana do after spm

1) do a cross stich, duno y, suddenly had the urge to do it. haha..its been a long time since i did one, i tink the last time was back in form 1. =] [vee,y dun u join me? then u can do one COMPLETE one for ernie. hahahah] =P

2) watch alot alot of movies. hahaha..wateva movies la..=]

3) go out!! n..lepak! HAHA..

4) ohh..our plan.. go to vee's hse, watch movie, do manicure n pedicure, do facial. n reli hav a girls night out! haha..

5) work. hm..i feel like working in diff places. heres a few - in a restaurant, in a kindergarten,in a drink place ie. the juice stalls,or like..*bux,.hm..yeah hehe

6)take ice skating class. its been in my head since..form 3? ahaha.. *hope mum wld let*

hm..i tink theres more,but cant seem to recall. hehe

oh, daph n i got a new hobby on the way back frm penang. - cloud watching
hahaha..its so fun to like..look at the clouds. n daph apparently can tell whether its gona rain frm lookin at clouds. n shes right everytime. she can even predict wat time =o n its correct oso..so freakey rite da-fe-nie. hahahah..

(msgs to ppl)
to vee : thankz. haha..ure so clever..n,bout ur dream, its not impossible,u just gotta get sum billionaire, or like..probably multi millionaire wld do oso la.. hehe! n i'll so be ur bridesmaid! hahaha!!

to sv : hahaha..yesyes,i'll support u by teasing her.. AHAHAHA..its so much FUNN!! hahha

to jen : thank u so much jen for constantly checkin on me..=] reli appreciate it! hehe..

oh..n my comp is resting in peace. *sobz* hahaha!! nvmlar, its so old edi. so yah, im using dad's laptop. hehe..[no msn..aihs] haha..
n i came up wit a brilliant plan 2 ahaha.. but dad choose to ignore it..aihs! haha.. coz its about him buying me a laptop..so of coz he wld ignore! HAHAHA!

the phone racing game..

hm. dun reli noe wat to name it..
nyway, dis game is created by miss tan vee vien. hahahahaha..

its a game between veevien, chia ern, junhann n me. so far la..haha..
heres how it went.
i tink vv n jh raced to call chia ern n they havto make him say the word "underwear"
then they raced to call me to make me say the same word.
then vv n i raced to call jh n make him say the word "bolster."
hahahahaha..then jh made vv n i call ernie n em, say "i love u"
but in the end, no one won..hahaa..

its weird , we're all supposed to be studying. hav no idea wats all dis.. but it was so fun..
hahahaha..childish, but..haha..

okok..was asked to go study..=[
hehe..byez!

sleepy..*yawnz*

em,my title has no relation wit wat im about to say, cant tink of one..hehe, but i am sleepy now

hm..its, farah,christine n mr.nathan's bday today..how kewl..hehe

went to eejern's hse for a study grp..hahaha..wit vee as wel
n we ended up walking around ss2..playing swing.. yah, wat kinda study grp..
haha. oh..but i managed to study one whole chap of history, which i consider, quite gud..
heheh..thx jen for pestering me, n for stopping me frm sleeping! hehe..
oo, n i got both vee n jen to play songs for me. [the piano..] ah..hehe..

had quite a bad day on monday, was reli reli down., felt awful,felt bad,was very angry at myself,
basically, had a very unpleasant chat wit sum1 i consider quite close. its sad, sumtimes, sum1 ure close to, n bcoz of sumthing,it causes the both of u to stray..n i havent spoke to dat fren since then. its weird, we're suppose to clear things up, but none of us r doin anything. aih,i still feel awful.

spm is so close, *sobz* n i had a horrifying dream 2day. was so freaked out by it.. heres a small part of my dream :
i was sitting for bm paper, and its the karangan part, n its the second one, the one dat carries 100 marks. yeah, n i was halfway writing it, then suddenly, i duno y i started writing it in english witout realizing. so like, i oni realized bout it around the ending. n im like.."omgosh! wat is dis? why is it in english!..im so dead..=[" haha..i was SO freaked out, it seemed so real. gee.. =]

oh, i wana eat putumayam!! its been so long since i ate it, but its so hard to find. the only place i noe is in the small giant in kj, but apparently dat guy dun sell nymore..='<>

ok, em, i shud go study now, =]
*jen, lets go watch corpse bride..n we drag wee along. =] n claryn mayb, if she wants..hehe..*