funghow's day and ss2a cell..

it was funghow's bday yesterday...yes..da very memorable date..20.05.2005.. hehe..how kewl is dat..din realize bout it until dis mornin when i read da article in star..about the 80 couples who got married yesterday..so shweet! haha...
anyway, we had a surprise party for him..went to jaya after skool..in mcd's 3rd floor..
haha..was surprised quite alot of em turned out..[his frens la]
so..nyway, he wuz so happy and touched..he even cried!! haha!! so looks like vb did a great job planning dis for him..hehe..
okay..then went to bb to play squash..played wit cassie..no..haha..we din reli play tho, we were tokkin most of da time! haha!! im glad dat i got to spend sum time wit her..din get to reli tok to her eversince dis year..coz..not same class nymore, not sitting wit each other nymore..so got to do sum catching up..! hehe..

owel..then had cell..
haihz, cell.. yes.. i duno wat wrong..but...cell is gettin worse each week..
not reli DAT bad..but..each week i'll leave km's hse dissapointed and sad..
each week, eversince da change in leadership in our cell, we[da leaders] hav not been happy la.. okay..so its obvious dat its da leaders..but..i dunola..we've done our parts..but it just seem like our members hav been changing..okay..i duno if im making sense..
haihz..nvm..our cell just dun seem like a cell..
its like..they are all in their own world..
and..i dun see any respect in da cell at all...ppl wil b tokkin when u r tokking n dat is reli frustrating..and noone[not all, but most of em] seem to be bothered about ppl's testimonys, about word, about worship..

gosh..i duno wat am i supposed to do!!
need lotsa prayers..need lotsa advice..haihz..
each week km will wana 'fire' them..but..dun seem to b able to do dat..
its just sad to see them acting/ behaving likedat.. i duno..
but sumtimes..i tink its my fault.. i noe i shudnt b blaming everythin on them..
probably i just dun hav enuff commitment towards the cell...
at times i think i wld ruin the cell..i wld cause it to die..
i duno..gosh,..seeing it likedis each week reli weakens my erm..my...i duno..
it just makes me feel horrible...
i wld come home each week crying...not noeeing whther i made da right decision takin up leadership..
dun think i even hav the qualities to lead a cell.. why did i even take it up? and now im causing it to die..

alrite..cant go on tokkin bout it..
all i can do now is to commit dis cell to God,..
n keep praying for a change...

hm..wanted to upload sum pics of funghow's bday..
but..havent got any yet..frm ppl..and havent upload those on my fone..hehe..
so..seelar..hehe..

kayz..gotta go get ready for pget! hehe..
bye!!